Asterisk.

For the past (almost) two weeks, I have had the sense of forgotten homework looming over me like a cloud. I attribute this feeling to my lack of blog posting. So, here I am righting the wrong and contributing what little I can to the blogosphere.

It seems I have also forgotten the correct way in which to compose myself on here. Would you mind terribly if I just jot down a few ramblings that are bouncing around in my head?* Hey, thanks! You guys are super cool.

1. Today is Day 10 of no soft drinks, meaning Day 10 of headaches. I could have ended the strand of headaches if I had given up caffeine completely, but I did have a Starbucks drink or two.** Besides the headaches, there is no change in how I feel (energy wise or other).*** ...maybe as time progresses.

2. Speaking of things that are no more, Newbie - who was hired sometime in January - has left us. Last Thursday, she spoke with Dr. M just as she arrived to work and Newbie explained to her that she took another job and was starting Monday. She then asked Dr. M if she could go ahead and leave (we had a waiting room full of patients and a full schedule). Dr. M asked her if she could at least work through the end of the following day, seeing as we were going to be pretty busy. Reluctantly, Newbie agreed. Who does that?! Newbie claims her new place of employment would not let her give a two weeks notice, but I highly doubt that. So now, there are two techs working here, covering a three-tech job. We're in the process of looking for a new hire, but no one has applied yet.

This whole situation is just plain wrong. It's infuriating.

3. On the bright side of my current job situation, on May 1st I was given a raise and another week of vacation days to add to what I already had. That day marked 3 full years that I have been employed by Dr. M.

4. I have completed Midnight Sun for what I would say is the 11th time. It is the book of Twilight through Edward's eyes and thoughts. It is by far, my favorite of the series, even though it has not been finished. Every time I read it, I wish desperately that Stephenie Meyer has finished it as a surprise to her readers. Sadly, it always ends the same: abrupt and incomplete. I am still crossing my fingers that it will one day be finished.

5. Oh, goodness! I should have mentioned this first. I finished reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows! (Don't worry, there aren't any spoilers in this.) Up until about a month ago, I was decided that I wanted to see the movie before I read it, as I have done with all of the others, but I have already had several key points in the final book spoiled for me and I wasn't going to let that happen anymore. I wanted to find out everything for myself. Guys, seriously. Shock and awe overwhelmed me as I read. You won't believe it until you see/read it! I am so glad I decided to read it before the last installment of the movie series came out! I wish I could say more, but I shall wait until the final movie is released. To be continued...

6. Speaking of the July release of HP7 Part 2, my siblings and I have planned our vacation around this important and historical event!**** I am so ready for July 13th so I can have all of my siblings under one roof for a whole week. I miss them so.

7. I'm sorry, but I have yet another book to talk about: Heaven is for Real. There is no way to convey in written word how much I loved this book. Colton has an amazing story to share. His description of Jesus gave me chills and brought forth tears. I am so excited to have this kind of Heaven, this kind of God, waiting on me. I recommend this book to any breathing person.

8. Before I started this post, I made a rather short list of things to write about and have been striking out each topic as I have finished its rather short paragraph. When I finished the list, another topic popped into my head; I wrote it on the list just so I could mark it off, and have since done it three more times. #obsessivelistmaker

9. I've been pondering on people's reaction to the weather. Every time it rains, patients, coworkers, etc. will makes comments about how "nasty" it is outside. I just don't understand that opinion. I can't help but see the beauty in it when it rains. It really is one of God's prettiest creations to me. I mean, look at the clouds: a deep charcoal mass replenishing the dry earth; water falling from the sky with a purpose; the cooling effect of precipitation; the life sustaining effect on plants; the beauty of lightening that accompanies it; the glorious roar of thunder that follows; the wonderful smell it leaves behind. What is so "nasty" about that?

10. My dreams have recently taken a drastic change. It's not always that there is a love interest in them, but if there is, it is usually the same person, for whatever reason. Lately, though, the love interest in my dreams has changed to a completely (and surprisingly) different person. The only thing I can deduce from this is that "times are-a-changin'"...

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Inspirational Text #6:
Psalm 144:5-6 Bow thy heavens, O Lord, and come down: touch the mountains, and they shall smoke. Cast forth lightning, and scatter them: shoot out thine arrows, and destroy them.

It's not just our heritage and the oxgoad on our side, we have the almighty God with us. We are his lightning and we are his arrows. We will leave a path of destruction for our Lord.

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Inspirationl Text #7:
Tonight men, we face our greatest obstacle yet, those who have disgraced us and our father, but they have made a costly mistake, they stepped on our field. So tonight we make them pay, just like the "Judges" we have descended from.

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This is my favorite from this season so far! Cody's team was going up against the other team from their church. Brilliant text.

Inspiration Text #8:
They may share our name but never have we faced an enemy bigger than this. Tonight, sons, we are without a weakness. They were our brothers but when they chose to oppose us, they chose destruction. Show them no mercy, for you shall recive none.

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Movies seen in theaters: 26
DvDs bought: 60*****

*Clearly, this is the assumed response: "Of course not, Cassie, jot away."
**Sir Jacqués Paúl explained that weaning myself off of caffeine is far worse than quitting cold turkey, hence the headaches.
***I really want a Mountain Dew.
****Have I already told you all this?
*****I am trying to be more prudent with my money, hence the unchanging number.

May you be covered in the dust of your rabbi.

I've been staring at the cursor blinking, trying to think of what to write and this is exactly what sums up all of my current thoughts: I miss my family so much it hurts. I talked on the phone to both of my sisters earlier and tried to talk to my brother but got his voicemail. I want so badly for all of us to be under the same roof right now. 


It seems now that I only get to see Brandy and Mat once every six months and that just isn't cutting it. We miss so much of each other's lives because of all of the miles. It makes me sad. 


I get to see Cody quite a bit more than I get to see B and MJ. We usually only let a month or two pass before we get to visit each other, which is good ... but not great. I am ready for him to move home (to Chattanooga: his real home) so I can always have him around.


Ashley, luckily, lives about 12 minutes from me. But even so, I don't see her as often as I could; not meaning months or even weeks, but I have the luxury of having my sister here and we sometimes go days without seeing each other. But at least I have her here. She is my security blanket.


I wish my siblings and their significant others would come here so we could all live together and have one big party house. I would be forever happy. They light up my life. :)


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On most days, my mood is, well, "blah"... if that makes any sense. My job has me so unhappy that it's beginning to feel normal to be that way, and I know that is not the way it's supposed to be. After work, I don't do much of anything up until the point where it is so late that I crash in bed, only to wake up early and do it again. I am about to turn 22 years old. I think it's time to find my calling. 


I probably sound really depressed right now, and I see why you think so, but it's more that I am in a state of apathy. And that is really bad. It's so hard to pull yourself out of it because it can get to be really comfortable and safe that way. Trust me, I am in prayer about it, but I need God to physically shake it out of me. Change it up. Make things better. Being apathetic will keep you in a standstill, never moving forward, never progressing. It's scary if you think about it.


My fear of the change is what God is really working on with me right now. On more than one occasion this week, He has told me that it's my fear holding me back and that the fear doesn't excuse me from anything. I need to be working towards His will by being His disciple. A true disciple of the Lord. That means walking as Jesus walked, doing as He did, loving as He did, and spreading the Word as He did. Only then will I find true joy and the plan for my life. I find that I doubt too often that I can do anything; I don't like to fail. 


Please, just be in prayer for me that I may hear God and find the direction I need to go. I can't stay in my situation any longer without going completely insane.


Listen to this <3




Movies seen in theaters: 6
DvDs bought: 18