NaNoWriMo Day 10

Yes, the truth is that it is day 10 and I am far behind from where I need to be in my word count. So, instead of dwelling on that horrifying fact, I am going to tell you about my day 9.

Yesterday, I did not type one word towards my goal. All day at work, I sat in a daydream. Usually, when I'm not having to do actual work, I read other blogs, check my stats, text, or play on my phone or iPod. Yesterday, though, I hardly did any of the above. I mean, I did check Facebook and my blog stats a few times, and maybe texted a little, but for most of the day, I found busy work to do or just stared out of our front door. Matt asked me several times what was wrong, but I never really had an answer. I was just tired, I guess.

Towards the end of the work day, I decided I wanted to go see a movie. I needed to spend some time not in my world, time away from thinking about my book. Leah met up with me and we saw MegaMind. It was funny; a really cute movie. We got home around 10:45 I think. Maybe 11? Not really sure. But when I got home, I sat in my bed and opened my Mac so that I could start writing, even if only for a little while. Somehow, I ended up laying down, and as soon as my head hit the pillow, I was out.

I woke up at 2 something. My big light was still on and I will still wearing my clothes and contacts. Also, I was laying in a really weird position and my entire body felt tense.

What woke me up was the dream I had during that short period of time. I dreamt that everything I started, I couldn't finish for whatever reason; people kept coming in or tragedies were occuring or I just didn't think I could finish whatever it was. I was so frustrated.

I am pretty sure stress about finishing this book has finally gotten to me. I keep analyzing every detail I put into it and worry that it doesn't sound good or isn't interesting. I think that is what is keeping me back the most. Even though no one else is reading it, or has read it, I can not stop worrying how awful it is.

It's hard for me to just keep writing because I take anything that I do so seriously. I want to always be great at what I do and the truth is, I may not be. But even so, I set out doing this for fun and because I have always wanted to write a book. I wish I could take the advice I keep telling myself and "just write; don't worry about the details and flow of the book, you can fix it later." It's so hard though.

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Here is a list of why I am already stressed today:
1. I have a ton of laundry that NEEDS to be done tonight so I can
2. Pack my bags for this weekend.
3. I NEED to clean out my nasty car because
4. Ash and I are leaving for North Augusta tomorrow after work.
5. We start our new Bible study tonight with our small group.
6. I have to run to Walmart for necessities.
7. I am so far behind in my word count that it's embarrassing. I need to type SOMETHING tonight.
8. And, there are some other personal things I could add to this list, but I won't.

Poor planning, Cassie. I am very disappointed.

NaNoWriMo Day 8

I have been hiding myself in shame because I am not writing like I should be. *hangs head low* Right now, I should be at 11,669 words and working towards 13,336. I am currently at 9,768.


I really need to buckle down and write. I am hoping for a sudden urge to write until I my fingers fall off, but it hasn't happened yet. I did, however, receive motivation one night from Emily because she promised a great surprise if I wrote 1,000 words within the hour. I succeeded, of course. :) And last night, I wrote 1,000 more words because of a threat made by Bubba. Again, I met the goal. I seem to work better when I have something hanging over my head.

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In non-nano news, Emily found out she can't go with us to the NC beach anymore... her work did not approve her to have this Friday off. :/  My curse took a low blow with this one. I never plan things because somehow, the plans NEVER work out. But when we were planning this trip, everything seemed in line and nothing could get in the way. Wrong, once again, Cassie; you should know better than to plan anything too far in advance. So with Paige and Emily out, Shelly having to work, Blakeley having a test/her bf coming in town for the first time since he moved away, Leah already taking too much time off of work recently, and Bubba having school, it looks like it will be just Ashley and myself. And possibly Cody! If he doesn't have a test, my brother will get to join us, so that is a plus! :)

I think Laken (Ash's friend who lives up there) will be spending most of the weekend with us too. So we won't be completely alone. I am so excited! We are leaving after work on Thursday and staying the night at Blakeley's house in North Augusta. Then we're off to NC Friday morning!

My friend Donald (aka Bubba) started his very own blog last night. (Click here to read it!) Since he just started it, he only has one post, but I encourage you to go ahead and be one of his followers... it's going to be great! :)

Noviembre viene.

It's official. I am going to Carolina Beach, NC for a weekend in November! November: the month I am writing my first novel. What could be better than writing on the beach when it's cold out?! Nothing. ;)

And I won't just be writing; I will have the distraction of friends and fun times to be had. This means I will need to get as much writing done as I can before the trip so I don't have to make up for lost time afterward.

Carolina Beach is about 15 miles from Wilmington so we will also be visiting that historic city. Ashley's best friend, Laken, lives in Wilmington, which means Ash will get to see where her best friend now lives. And I can't be sure, but I don't think they've seen each other in about six months. I'm glad we can reunite them. :)

Guys, November is going to be the best month this year; NaNoWriMo starts, I have a four day weekend, going to Carolina Beach, Harry Potter comes out, the time changes so it will get dark quicker... and not to mention, it's finally getting colder out. I have been looking forward to November since February, and it will be here in a few short weeks.

You know, writing an entire novel in one month is going to take up almost all of my free time anyway, but there are these few specific events I just have to be a part of. So, other than what is already planned, I will not be taking part in anything but writing (and church!), so don't be offended if I opt out on hanging out with any of you. It's not personal. :)

If, however, you are in school and will have homework, I am all for having a "study date" with you! It may keep me motivated and you might also inspire a character or plot point.

Until then, it's still October and I still don't have a costume for Halloween. Any suggestions?