10th time's a charm.

I am packing up all the junk I have accumulated and am moving it out of Leah's house this week. A month from today, she will be Mrs. Mullins, and her and Chris will be living in that house together.

First of all, I can't believe how fast the wedding date has arrived! The months flew by. Second, this will be the tenth time I've moved everything I own. My stuff is quite heavy.

I'm sorry, what was your question? Why, yes... I am looking to recruit all able bodied people with trucks to make my life a little easier... thanks for asking. ;)

I bought one of those huge plastic storage tubs with wheels from Walmart (along with a second, slightly smaller wheel-less tub) to pack my movies and books in. I first transferred my DvDs into the larger of the tubs and ran out of room just as I was getting to the top row of my shelf... so I had to put the rest into the second tub. I think my collection is a little excessive, I may trim it down some. It's kind of ridiculous.

As I was packing things away last night, Leah came home and we started taking down the old rooster decor that was used in the kitchen for so long and started putting up her own decorations. We also rearranged furniture in the living room and moved some of the better decor to different spots. It looks cleaner, bigger, and much less cluttered. LC is starting to put her own touch on things... she is already starting to look like a pretty little wife. :)

I am going to be sad to leave here. I absolutely love living in Ringgold. This house is in a great location and it is not at all far from one of my best friends. Not to mention, the house is pretty big for just two people... lots of room and privacy if needed. I am moving back into my Pawpaw's house with Ash. My Pawpaw doesn't live there anymore (he lives with his new wife) but he does still keep most of his things in the house. I am not sure how I am going to have all of my stuff fit in there. My stuff takes up too much room. His small but quaint house is pretty much the central location for our family... there is a lot of foot traffic on those hardwood floors. I do love that they are there often and I will get to see them more, but I am known for being less sociable than the rest of the clan; I like my privacy. It'll just be a change I will have to get used to again. (I have lived there once before.) A plus is that it is close to work, so less gas wasted and more time to sleep in. Also, my seester makes a great roommate, what with her culinary skills and all. ;)

Change. Ugh.


Movies seen in theater: 38
DvDs bought: 70

NaNoWriMo Day 10

Yes, the truth is that it is day 10 and I am far behind from where I need to be in my word count. So, instead of dwelling on that horrifying fact, I am going to tell you about my day 9.

Yesterday, I did not type one word towards my goal. All day at work, I sat in a daydream. Usually, when I'm not having to do actual work, I read other blogs, check my stats, text, or play on my phone or iPod. Yesterday, though, I hardly did any of the above. I mean, I did check Facebook and my blog stats a few times, and maybe texted a little, but for most of the day, I found busy work to do or just stared out of our front door. Matt asked me several times what was wrong, but I never really had an answer. I was just tired, I guess.

Towards the end of the work day, I decided I wanted to go see a movie. I needed to spend some time not in my world, time away from thinking about my book. Leah met up with me and we saw MegaMind. It was funny; a really cute movie. We got home around 10:45 I think. Maybe 11? Not really sure. But when I got home, I sat in my bed and opened my Mac so that I could start writing, even if only for a little while. Somehow, I ended up laying down, and as soon as my head hit the pillow, I was out.

I woke up at 2 something. My big light was still on and I will still wearing my clothes and contacts. Also, I was laying in a really weird position and my entire body felt tense.

What woke me up was the dream I had during that short period of time. I dreamt that everything I started, I couldn't finish for whatever reason; people kept coming in or tragedies were occuring or I just didn't think I could finish whatever it was. I was so frustrated.

I am pretty sure stress about finishing this book has finally gotten to me. I keep analyzing every detail I put into it and worry that it doesn't sound good or isn't interesting. I think that is what is keeping me back the most. Even though no one else is reading it, or has read it, I can not stop worrying how awful it is.

It's hard for me to just keep writing because I take anything that I do so seriously. I want to always be great at what I do and the truth is, I may not be. But even so, I set out doing this for fun and because I have always wanted to write a book. I wish I could take the advice I keep telling myself and "just write; don't worry about the details and flow of the book, you can fix it later." It's so hard though.

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Here is a list of why I am already stressed today:
1. I have a ton of laundry that NEEDS to be done tonight so I can
2. Pack my bags for this weekend.
3. I NEED to clean out my nasty car because
4. Ash and I are leaving for North Augusta tomorrow after work.
5. We start our new Bible study tonight with our small group.
6. I have to run to Walmart for necessities.
7. I am so far behind in my word count that it's embarrassing. I need to type SOMETHING tonight.
8. And, there are some other personal things I could add to this list, but I won't.

Poor planning, Cassie. I am very disappointed.